sariaya mencius

It has been said across many cultures and languages that the woman is at her most beautiful at the time when she is heavy with her pregnancy and that when she gives birth, she fully becomes a woman.

In a month, i shall be married to the man i love the most and with whom i vow to profess my eternal love.  In a month, i shall be free and unafraid to show off a big belly.

There are so many things i have done in life that i am never afraid of, but pregnancy outside of marriage scares me like crazy.

Somehow, at the end of the day, i still want to walk down the aisle in my immaculate white gown and show off my self to the world and be a shining example to the other unmarried girls who will be there to watch and grace the occassion.

Above all, i want to be able to someday teach my daughter a lesson without telling her to learn from my mistake.

I know pregnancy and babies are a gift from God, but when i do get pregnant, i want to be able to share the joy and excitement with the world.

Do you think i am still rational or am i just in denial?